I'll start right off the bat by saying I am not currently suicidal, and I have no plans to kill myself anytime soon. What I struggle with is the illogical belief that I will definitely kill myself someday - it's just a matter of when. I can't see myself growing old to enjoy retirement, in fact I have trouble seeing beyond a few months or weeks even.

I find this belief that I will kill myself at sometime, kind of disturbing, and I've thought that way pretty much since grade 4. I can't seem to shake it, and it's bothering me.

I'm going to bring it up with one of my T's.

Just wondering if anyone else can relate?

Thanks.

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