((Tinkerbell)) - so sorry to hear about your SIL's sister passing. Yes it hurts and challenges our faith when loved ones die, especially when they're taken so young. I'll tell you a bit about myself so you can understand how thinking can change. My dad died from cancer when I was 2, leaving 5 kids(I was the youngest). I ended up being too attached to my mother, so when she has a major stroke when I was 27, I felt like I wanted to die....in fact I prayed to trade places. She survived, ended up being disabled for 8 yrs. I mourned my healthy mom even though she was still alive. I grew as a person and when she passed I ended up being okay. Since then I also lost 2 brothers in the last 6 yrs.

Leed has also had/been through a great deal of pain and this has given us wisdom, that we can pass onto you. People wonder why would God let a baby die - no one can answer that. The unfortunate part of life is, death happens and yes it hurts. The circle of life is, we're born, live, learn and then its our time. I lost my brother to suicide - surprisingly I learned and grew from that too. What I'm trying to say is, growth can come out of bad experiences as long as we don't let it destroy us. We all have pain during our lives.

There are times when I wish someone could feel my pain and care about me. I've had to be my own pillar and I did that by tapping into my survival mode, plus I got constructively angry. I told myself I deserve to live and survive. I usually don't go on about myself, but I'm hoping something will click in you....a lightbulb moment. You may think no one cares but we genuinely do. I understand when life deals a hard blow, its hard to see the light, but I hope you'll find that glimmer inside you.