I called a few places today about counselling. It was hard, but I think it's a step in the right direction I'm supposed to hear back tomorrow from two of them. We'll see.. .I'm nervous.

As I've been reading other posts it seems to me that I'm not alone in dealing with the nightmares/flashbacks. That's probably been the hardest part because in order to try and preven them...I haven't been sleeping much (maybe 4 hours a night if I'm lucky..) Any suggestions/advice on how to deal with them? Usually, it drives me to SIB... but I hate that part of me and I want to find a healthier way of managing my emotions.

Thanks so much for all of your feedback and support so far. This place has been a true God-send already.