Im not fond of social gatherings but knew most people going so I thought it could be fun but for me anything over 4-5 people it gets uncomfortable unless I have a drink or two. I guess a little alcohol calms my nerves a bit. I felt like I needed to jump overboard to avoid the awkwardness. I may have social anxiety I dont know. I just know I had to rant and now I have to act noraml around my family cause we need to move things around the house. Im stuck in a lie Im a fraud. I just want to isolate.