Soooo my t is trying to get me to actually feel my feelings. She promises me they won't kill me. She says it is okay to be uncomfortable.. and I have to feel them because they will come out some other way eventually.. Okay Sounds good..

BUT I tried that today. Woke up with crazy anxiety and my head was just bopping from thought to thought... so I tried to sit with the anxiety and feel it in my body.. but that completely sucked. And I thought.. I know how to deal with this.. push all these feelings away.. stick them back in their box.. distract myself with something else.. go on autopilot and make it through the day. Cause I really don't know what I'm supposed to do with them once they are there...

I know I gotta make this breakthrough at one point or another, but right now.. i'm just overwhelmed.