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Old Sep 16, 2012, 07:44 PM
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Originally Posted by hamster-bamster View Post

I've been reading online about people's experiences stopping SSE-causing drugs (SSE=sexual side effects) and one woman reported starting to orgasm again after a month of not taking her SSE-causing drug.

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Way to go - dinner with son. I envy you. My son lives in Canada and I have not seen him since 2009. Long story, not for now. He is 19 - just a bit younger than yours. I find it hard to believe that I have a child that old, but - it is true.

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I hope you will get to go to France by yourself. I had a miserable experience in Paris being down with a most violent cold, and I would love to go back and experience it while being well. It is not anywhere on the horizon, but...

Sexual side-effects haven't even crossed my mind, since I haven't had sex since 1998 and have absolutely no sexual desire. No thoughts of sex at all. No masturbation. Nothing. It's like that part of me has been dead for all these years and I just exist without that type of passion.

Yes, it's crazy the way our kids grow and then we think, "How did they get to be this old?"

I have a lot of regrets, but I'm proud of him. I wish I had been coherent when he was little and not a basketcase over his father kicking me out. I wish I had my act together and made decent money so we wouldn't have had to have lived with my parents until my son was 5 years old. I wish I could have given him the things I see my friends giving their kids -- we shared a bedroom until he was 5, he didn't have a cute nursery with a theme, etc.

Can't believe the desire to go to France and other things that make me "me" are gone. I hope they come back. Right now, I just feel like a blog who is destined to continue floating from job to job, without the dreams and goals that used to fuel me.
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