Sweetheart you are NOT ugly. I know that you say you think you are but the truth is, you are a beautiful person. It sounds like you may have been picked on by the other kids at school because of your weight. Kids can be mean and hurtful. I know that you have to believe for yourself that you are beautiful. Us telling you that might help but you have to BELIEVE it. You might want to try to get some counseling to see if you can help yourself believe. Let us know how it's going for you.