I told my husband the plan that I made to commit suicide during my last really bad depressive stage. I had kept it to myself even when I got past feeling suicidal and I realized today that by holding on to it, I was protecting it and could use it if I get to that place again emotionally. I felt by telling him not only how I had planned to do it but where that I was removing the bullets from my proverbial gun. Now, should I ever be in that state of mind I know he knows exactly where to find me to keep me from doing it.