((((((HUGS))))) Oh Tinkerbelle..... I hate seeing you in so much pain. I know that the grief must seem intolerable but you will get through. You should see if you can get inpatient counseling since you are hurting yourself. I'm pretty sure your Mom would not want you to grieve in that way. To lose your sister-in-law as well makes it so much worse. Please tell your therapist everything so that you can get the help you need. We ALL care about you sweetie! Let us know how you are tomorrow!