Was feeling up today but now I am coming down. realize my trigger is my daughter and her schooling. my worry about how well she is not doing and her inability to get up in the morning dictates my mood. Now I am sitting her with my anxiety rising and feeling like a failure. beoming so scared of her failing and it reflecting on me as a not supporting parent because there are days when I can't get out the bed to care for her properly or make sure her school work gets completed. these are the times when I needed the 6 xanax. I just want to disappear but I don't want to hurt my children. confused and do not want to disturb my T with this. need some advice or some one to just realize my pain. don't want to be in this state alone.