I get it and I don't blame you, particularly if you've already been down that road. I never even heard of the disorder until this past February, and the instant I did and saw the traits, I knew I'd discovered what I'd been struggling with my entire life. And I also feel for those who are struggling against an unknown foe. So many people have BPD and don't have a clue, often because of the preconceived notions many "professionals" have of the disorder. There are supposedly as many BPDs out there as there are Bipolars, but almost EVERYONE has heard of Bipolar and very, very few have heard of BPD. That's partially why, when someone finds this forum and wants help or info, I try to offer that. It's hell feeling alone. I just have to be careful because I empathize with people very easily and don't need to trigger myself.....