I can understand that. Not having been threw that myself I do not know what I would do. I wish you the best of luck w/ your T. When our T's know everything about us it does cause a bond that is hard to break or at least for us the client. I don't know what the answer is in this situation. I wish I could do or say something to help. I cannot . I can only give you my best wishes and hugs. Hopefully just having us here at PC is a help. Having objective folks to talk to will hopefully make your options more clear.