I find suspicion, out of anyone, I usually think, " what if my family is trying to poison me?" , but I'm sure I proceed to eat the food they made and turned out to be alright. Then I say "What if this person created a new kind of disease like AIDS and is trying to infect me with it?" And along with the bad luck. I feel like I have bad luck each time I do certain things. Like downloading illegal programs, I get bad luck until i delete it, basically things I do that falls in to the superstition policy gives me bad luck. Why is this so?