How you found your T

I have had three T's... the first was picked by the Nurse Practictioner that perscribed me my meds...He was not someone that I got alone with very well

The second we were having family therapy becasuse of a girl that I had taken in to live with us and she had become a handful ... because I was seeing T # 1 and didn't like what was going on with him I asked if the family therapist would see me one on one too... That was ok for about a year when the girl ended up moving in with her biological mother and because we didn't need family therapy any longer T # 2 found me T # 3...

The first meeting with T # 1 was awful...I was so scared he was going to put me in the hospital because I had tried to commit suicide that I didn't say much of anything...

WIth T# 2 it was less stressful because we were seeing him for the family and he came to our house for family therapy I was able to sit outside the group because I had told him about my problems with therapy.

T#2 picked out T#3 and instead of just throwing me into a situation with someone I didn't know I had two meetings with T#3 while T#2 was there and he only stayed for a half hour and left me and T #2 to finish our meeting... I at least knew who my T now was before I saw him but I still had a really hard time talking to him for a few months... when the suicidal thoughts get bad I still have a hard time talking to him but it isn't him it's me.

I felt that we clicked after a few months but I have issues of feeling like I am a bother to everyone and tell him that it's my last session about every three months because I don't want to bother him.

Male... I always have gotten along better with men then women. Might have something to do with my mom dying when I was young and my stepmother being the wicked stepmom.

Didn't really know how old he was... thought he was around my age or even younger...I'm 40...turns out that he is almost 60 but don't look a day over 35... I really didn't want someone that was like fresh out of school... someone with more experience was better for me.

He is very warm and open... we can talk about anything that I need to talk about and I he knows I'm having a hard time talking about what is on my mind and just start to talk about my grandson or the weather he allows me to talk about it because he knows sooner or later I will deal with what is on my mind... and if it takes two hours and he has the time he will talk to me as long as I need to stay.

Tried group once... made it to two sessions... I didnt talk at all durning either session and one of the people made a comment that they needed to get me to talk and that was it for me... Can't even tell ya what the people looked like or if there were men, women, how many... I never looked at anyone.

I'm sure there were transference issues in the start... then he got married...he is a very important part of my life still...sometimes it's the only 3-D person I talk to in a week. everyone else is online or the three that I talk to on the phone...my two kids and a friend ... I can go the whole weeks without anyone but my T to talk to ...except my dogs.

I have been seeing my T for 6 years now...wow... it's been that long... hard to believe