I feel sub-human. A bit off, different, less of a person. Not normal. It's stupid really, "normal doesnt exist" etc, but it does. People generally act a certain way, with variation yes, but not like me. I look different, I have different problems, i act different. .I am really shy and feel disconnected from other people. I feel like I may be in a different dimension. I don't have good looks, a good personality, energy, etc. Maybe I am a different species, some other animal. A mutation. If it weren't for my boyfriend I'd be dead. Maybe sometimes I wish I didnt have him, so I could just end it and not hurt him. I don't feel like I can take it anymore.