I am going in at some point this week, to speak to DFS in my local area about Medacare and Disablity.

I am not sure why but even though with the issues I have i would qualify for either well enough. Somewhere in the back of my mind it feels like I am giving up on finding a normal job. Which I frankly hate that my brain is trying to think this way.

I am not giving up on my dreams and goals in my life simply cause I think I need extra help at this point in my life. And I am pretty sure that I am getting into internal arguments like this with my self due to.....my anxiety