A Big thankyou to all those who replied to me.It did make me feel more positive.I decided to go back on the antidepressant and now I will wait quietly for that dreadful feeling of being stuck in concrete to lift.I hate the fact that this illness rules my life, or seems to.It robs me of sponteniety and enjoying the small things.Sometimes it feels like things will never improve,but I still have hope that it will.I find the lack of motivation the most destructive part of the whole thing.I feel like Im not only hurting myself but those people important to me aswell.Hoping to pull myself out of the bog little by little,so thankyou all for caring enough to write to me.Best wishes to you all.