I'm keeping this short, because I have to get to bed soon, but I want to let you know I understand, Angel. I have OCD, too, and have those details that don't affect other people's lives that make ours hell. You can't do this because you have to do this first, and you have to do that before you can do this, and then you have to wash your hands, and you have to do it for each time...I so understand that, hon!

My addiction isn't smoking, it's eating. Especially sugar, but not just sugar. I need to get control, and I'm scared I'm going to have a heart attack or a stroke, and I worry about my health all the time.

And I've had those screaming fits. I just start ranting in anger and frustration to myself or God or whoever's listening. Usually, I'm putting myself down. "I should have known this would happen, but no, I'm so stupid and I always do this. I'm just pathetic, and I'm a burden on everyone else, and I don't know why I keep doing these things..." And tears will be streaming down my face.

I'm sorry that happened to you. I'll tell you more later, or maybe I'll PM you. Just wanted to let you know I understand.