oh wow. I can totally relate. I went so far before as to want to medicate all of my emotions away! one thing to consider is if your emotions are totally out of control. that was/is my biggest problem at the moment. It wasn't/isn't that my moods were swinging, it was/is that my emotions were rampaging and there was nothing I could do about it.

that is, until, i learned all about emotions. it really made a difference to know what was going on.

I learned that there was a difference between moods, emotions, feelings, and my reactions to my feelings. and I learned how my reactions to my feelings are something that I can control and change, and how that changed my feelings about my emotions, and eventually how my feelings changed my emotions and got them under control.

I would love to have that conversation again if it's something you are interested in!