Hi everyone. I have never done anything like this before but I don't know what to do. I am currently home now and I should be at work. I have been struggling very badly in the past six months. I am going to be 23 years old. I have been suffering from depression since I was little. They put me on trileptal 300 mg along with the pristiq 100mg i have been on for years. They thought I was bipolar but I feel I was misdiagnosed and rather have severe depression and anxiety. The trileptal makes me very angry and have severe mood swings. I lash out on people I care about and then feel an overwhelming guilt afterwards. I called my doctor today and left her a voicemail-hopefully she gets back to me. I am so miserable. I can't stop crying. I have become a hermit. I have no love for myself and don't have any desire to do anything other than lay at my house. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what to do. I can't escape my own head. I can't stand to be with myself in my head anymore.