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Old Sep 17, 2012, 10:27 AM
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Originally Posted by polar_bear1 View Post
Hi all, I got DX Bipolar1 in 2004 (26yrs old) hospitalized in a very serious full blown mania, after that came depression. Been on meds since then, get a yearly swing every February (big swing) and been up and down all these years but within limits of being seriously ill- due to preventive meds.
For the last 2yrs I´ve been rapid cycling/mixed state with a lot of anxiety.
My life got more complex 2yrs ago and that´s when the anxiety and panic attacks kicked in.
Now at 34yrs I´m only getting worse, no job, took time off from uni, and getting more insecure- have a 6yr old, single mom.

My pdoc once told me that with every serious episode, you´ll get a bit worse! Like your brain gets a little scar each time you get sick!!

Have you heard this before?

How is it for you? Do you get worse with age?

I know there are always new meds coming in, our health deteriorizes... but how do you experience your illness...is it getting worse?

Thanks in advance for your replies
I definitely think mine has... I was diagnosed in 1994 and with in the last few years ... I know it's worse. I cant function like i used to. I can't follow thru with things.. I cant work anymore.. I sometimes cant even carry a conversation without the topic changing several times and then drifting off trying to make myself remember what was the original question.. It is embarrassing at best around my family.. My household knows me I have lived here with a significant other for fifteen years.. but when I leave my safety zone.. I have to really watch my words and my actions.. Good Question
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Thanks for sharing!!
Thanks for this!
polar_bear1