Fuzzy and others, this whole thread has hit me like a ton bricks. Just hearing the idea that abuse surviors sometimes to keep quiet or sit by and allowing unhealthy relationships continue made me realize I do that and always have. Still, I feel my voice is caged at this point. Something awful happened with the person I was dating and here I sit and feel sympathy for him. Why can't I just tell him to %#@&#! off or show him that I'm angry. I've told a few very close friends all the details of what did happen and two of them think I should call the police. Logically, I think that I should but I'm afraid but sadly, I'm not 100% sure of what I'm afraid of? What he did was unspeakable and I have taken myself out of the relationship.

Funny, this person is actually sending me text msg's this morning, asking again if we are done. For the life of me, I can't understand why I can't say YES, I do not ever want to see you again, you cannot behave that way!! But no, I'm saying 'Well I hate thinking about it all. I love you and I'm angry with myself, I'm torn'.... what a cop out!! I feel weak and frightened but OF WHAT!!!!! I'm 34 for Christ's sake!!