(((lolathecat))),

I am so sorry that you experienced this as a child. Children just don't understand how to deal with abuse and these kinds of invasions really, they just don't have the knowledge or understanding.

You need to find a good therapist that you can work with so that you can see how this effected the way you think and react to others, in relationships and to your self.
You can learn to work through this and reclaim your life by understanding how this experience effected you and why you have chosen the relationships you chose.

It doesn't have to be a burden to you the rest of your life, you "can" actually grow past it, with help and new ways to shape your thinking processes.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes