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Old Mar 05, 2003, 05:36 PM
Daves39 Daves39 is offline
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hi. As I sit here looking out on the grey winter sky, I count the winters since I have even seen this man, there have been a couple, and I picture him, his children, our talks about his children, living there in his house, how masculine he was, how I'd get when he'd walk into the room- my heart would skip a beat. I try and try to find meaning elsewhere everyone in my support group gets so angry as all I talk about are him and his kids, the group of them all. He was the first person I was involved with sexually, I'm not sure this may have something to do with it. And I can't publicly say"I'm going through a break up..." as he was married to someone else the whole time. We couldn't go out in public together. There is the whole weave of feelings, for him, his kids, his house, his wife, the drama, the family feeling. But it was never my family. Everyone in my support group keeps saying, have your own family! but it's not that easy. One thing is for sure, I have a high level for drama. I try to find it other places but it doesn't feel the same......