Love, you may think you are not depressed! but you are! and it is better to deal with it sooner than later! Depression is not something that will go away .....there are lot of factors that lead/contribute to it!
I am Manic Depressive, and seriously everyday is tug of war" want to" or"end it" thoughts....but the fact that i have 3 young ones, i realize, what hell i will be leaving them, if i dont get help!
Great that you have come out!
Your life is a gift, and your gist has a purpose on this planet .....however horrible the pain and suffering, and how impossible it may seem, do not despair.....i will walk with you, on this journey, i will hold your hand,, i will listen to you, i will hold you! so come on this road to recover and self discovery and Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!