I am new to the forum as well. I was also just recently diagnosed with BP and I am waiting to meet with my Psychiatrist again to start on new meds. My high started fall 2004 and I was up and down from there til Feb of this year where I was hospitalized for having severe depression, and wanting to commit suicide. That's when I actually met with my psych who changed my meds but at this point they still thought I was just depressed. However the highs and lows have become more intense, the yelling, the crying, the hyperness!!! I've come to learn that with the high's come the really bottom lows!! and those are the worst!! It's like getting hit by a truck!!! Like being out all night drinking, and waking up the next morning!!! Hopefully the meds will help as this is so exhausting!! But this site ironically makes me feel like home!