I've learned about the Holocaust in school, yes. That's where I found my secret adoration of Hitler.

I have talked to my therapist about it. He encourages it. There's nothing wrong with what I fantasize about. He knows it's not the Nazism and Holocaust itself I fantasize about and he knows there's no secret motive. It's too hard to go into it. It's a fantasy of mine and I own about $500 worth of paraphernalia, including lingerie.

What I've learned about BDSM from fetlife is that there is no such thing as a "true" anything. There's no "true" way to be a master or slave, there's no "true" definition of a fetish. The definition of fetish can be applied loosely. You may have fetish confused with a sex-addiction.