ff7, I have that game... I want to play it, but I don't have the strength... I knew about Zack though. Anyways, I know what you mean... When I was playing Tales of Symphonia, especially the second one... I would look at Emil and Marta... I wished that I could be Emil... He wasn't a great hero, he had split personalities and no memories. I felt like I understood that... of course it ended with Emil being an alter of a somewhat evil summon spirit that was going to kill off humanity... and Marta's heart gets broken... There are three possible endings to the the game... Sorry, a bit off track there. But, yeah I understand what it feels like, you wish you could be as cool as Zach... but you just don't see it ever happening due to your condition. I don't know, but one thing I learned from other ffs is that often the characters are fairly broken people looking for redemption. My english teacher compares Zach to Faramir from the Lord of the Rings(not the movie version of Faramir.) Zack is a picture of a complete epic hero, one that has already achieved a rank at the epic hero lv. characters have to work and be like Zach or Faramir... everyone has to start somewhere. and it is good to look up to him as such a hero...try to emulate Zach. I mean inwardly. And no, it won't be easy. As you journey towards your redemption, just keep in mind that if people hate you for that, they are wrong and you can't be blamed. I hope that helps...