First let me say that you absolutely have the right to do what you want with your body and your life. I am not attempting to talk you out of it or anything.

Now let me speak for myself and why I cannot understand your fetish. For me "it feels good and it isn't hurting anyone" is not sufficient justification for doing something. For example, Chic-fil-a may have food that I want to eat and eating there doesn't directly hurt anyone. However, I find their anti-gay agenda horrific and so I will not engage in eating their food even if it would feel good and not hurt anyone. I think sometimes you need to put your urges aside for your principles.

I also don't think of choosing not to act on an urge is the same as suppressing your sexuality. I think you yourself said that this wasn't the entirety of your sexuality. Fact is, if I am bi and want to keep my monogamous hetero marriage in tact, I will have to suppress some aspects of my sexuality (e.g., having sex with women). I don't consider that suppressing my sexuality, I consider that choosing to express myself in one way rather than another.

Not attempting to get you angry. Just trying to contribute to a discussion.

EJ