having a smoke can really turn your life upside down, ever get trapped by something your teased with, and someone trying to get you to go away in the same manor as you are teased with, and also a minor while that person was the opposite sex and with an authority figure and you thought you knew them, and having a smoke, one wrong made a big wrong, and all downhill from there,and took a long time to figure it all out maybe 15 years or more just a estimate