(((splitimage)))
I sure can relate to what you're struggling with.

I often fight SI, and hold onto whatever positive thoughts/memories that I can to make it a little longer.
For me, I think that a big problem is I do have big limitations. Those won't go away. Instead, I need to accept the reality...and that isn't easy to do. It just "is".
I do agree with the others about bringing these thoughts & temptations up in T (as well as with your pDoc). I brought mine up a few weeks ago, and finally go in to see my pDoc this Friday. Hopefully, the SI will ease very soon. For all of us struggling with this issue!
Gentle hugs sent your way....