Those sound like some powerful feelings. Maybe you could journal about these things that you have mentioned. That way you can work some of them out, so that maybe they won't catch you off guard so easily out of the blue. It also helps to contain them. Then they are not as overwhelming. Nice work, identifying those things.
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg
