You're fine right where you are, or you can post in the Depression forum if you like.
You definitely have alot going on, my dear.

Anyone would feel stressed and going back to work must feel like a reprieve to you -- just getting out of the house must be like a vacation!

I know this has been very hard on you, and I hope that working isn't going to put MORE stress on you.
Please -- post here, on Depression, on the bpd, or wherever you feel most comfortable. We'll be there for you. Just be sure you keep posting, ok? And you might give some thought to seeing a therapist too. Therapy would be very good for you at this time. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee