I am terrified. I am finally breaking down and going for disability. I just cannot do it anymore. I way on two three month leaves and one a bit longer in two years time- and barely functioning at work at times. I got layed off for all of this, although I cannot prove it. I have been trying to hone my skills and job hunt, but it is so hard to concentrate and I have another "crash" every couple of months often lasting weeks.

Here is the biggest part of the problem. I cannot live on the emergency assistance I receive as it only covers half of my rent, and nothing else. I have nowhere to go. My boyfriend cannot do it on his own, as he is on unemployment, as well from a corporate layoff. He is looking like hell for a job, and I still am, despite.

My understanding is that I am not allowed to work at all right now- not even part time, but this could go on for months or more? Even if I had to get a new really crappy job every two months (and destroy what had been an excellent resume and what might be left of my mental health), I may have to do something to survive... Neither of us has family, or anywhere to go. It might really kill me, but I do not know what else to do.

Does anyone have any knowledge or advice? I am so scared and I do not know what to do.