I really hope that everything will get better. Remember your self worth. It depends on no ones opinion of yourself. It even depends on your inner voice disreguarding voices in your own head that tell you that "you aren't good enough. Did you see the add on tv about the HU element? It is so cute. BP puts it out and It is cute. It reminds me that being HU is difficult. There are some elements that are not reactive but my guess is that we humans react alot so HU is sometimes very reactive and needs to have a base of stability, which could be friends, that are all the time supportive. I struggle constantly to be a complete friend to myself under ALL CIRCUMSTANCES. Good Luck.