Exactly what's driving my need for others/pushing them away! My Pdoc says it's "Learned Dependence". At a time when a child is learning about the world and her relations with others from her parents/siblings, she's belittled for not knowing enough; put down and minimized when making an attempt at 'self'; and ridiculed when - if by chance - she excels at anything.
Why try?

Anything. When family has taught you that anyone is smarter or better than anything you could ever be?