I agree with BlackPup. The only person who can give you a diagnosis is a mental health professional. I also worry about the side effects possibly taking pieces of me away or dulling my creativity somehow. I know everyone s different, but I have actually felt more like creating and find myself drawing in my journal all the time, doodling like i used to and still being able to unleash creativity. Personally, I like to believe that there is a treatment plan for everyone. It is important to be honest with your pdoc and advise of any undesirable side effects that you encounter. There may be other options for you that will not leave you feeling like that.

Sounds like you have made that ever-important first step; to seek treatment and take control of your life. Good Job. Stay strong and know that there is support here for you should you need it.

TH