@ Deathwish Yep. I'm fast coming to the conclusion that I AM depressed. I've been in denial for such a long time, being a staunch subscriber to the "pull yourself together and "maintain a stiff upper lip" schools of thought

And I will get help; more than I'm getting right now as I too have kids (2) and they need me whole and sane and healthy not the messed up ragbag that currently passes for their mother.