I dont so much relate in the way that i enjoy sex, and lots of it, but the sex i enjoy is damaging and rough, i cant have anyone touch me softly of affectionatly i dont feel i desrve it, like im damaged goods alread beacuse of child sexual abuse.
i have found a loving partner now who i do enjoy a few tended moments with, he tried to help me best he can, i dont know if that can help but i fount having smeone who picked up on my for lack of a better word "abnormalitys" really help him understand and me grow as a person. x x