I cannot really ever remember being "right". I am told I started going through periods of weeks at a time of hyperactivity and insomnia from early school age years. I remember being very up and obsessive or very down from an early age...maybe 9 or 10.
By the time I was in jr high I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. By high school I was on meds. I played med roulette until 18 where I basically just gave up. Then I had PPD after my son and the med go round of meds for depression and anxiety started all over again. I pretty much played that game (except when preg w/ my daughter) until I was in my early 30's.
Finally, I had a doc who figured out I was cycling like mad and she dx'd me as BP II rapid cycling at 32. We have played more med roulette and therapy since then. Every time I find a combo that works, I either have it "poop out" or I have to let go of things due to side effects. Case in point... Seroquel and Cymbalta- had to give up both recently due to side effects, when mentally I had been doing so much better... merde.
Anyhoo- that is the story of my progression.
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