Was filled with anxiety since childhood. Struggled with depression since about the age of 18. In my 20's, the depressions came more frequently and towards my 30's they were lasting months. I was able to manage on paxil for years, at a low dose. They were moderate intensity. By my mid 30's, I had a major depression and then real hypomania with antidepressants. That being said, I had major life stressors at the time of my meltdown - major!

I sometimes wonder if I had never been on an antidepressant, if this would have happened. Like the drug did something to my brain chemicals after long term use and that this led to bipolar. Just a wonderment that I can do nothing about and will likely never know the answer.

Sometimes