I know the whole stopping my medicine on my own accord is not a good idea. On one level I know it makes no sense to get people to invest so much time in trying to adjust my meds and such when Im just goind to be non-compliant and not take them from time to time. But for some reason I can make it make sense to myself, though definately not on a LOGICAL level, heh.
That's the thing, the meds DONT seem to be helping me. If anything Ive felt 10times worse since I started taking the zoloft about 6 weeks ago. I know that it takes a while to get adjusted, but I've been patient and nothing seems to be getting better and often i am at the end of my rope and the only options I can see are not good ones. I probably will go pick up my rx, just because I am a people pleaser and i guess know on some level that I should be taking them anyways.

I just wish I could start taking care of my self in a logical way other than this obsessive, compulsive way that I do now. weight is ALWAYS the issue, which is what makes it so desperate I suppose. On one level here I want to est. a normal eating pattern, but the other side of me fears that this will make me gain weight and tells me I'm better off sticking to meticuliously chosen foods like I do now. Ugh

But thank you so much for caring, It's good to know that people out there give a rip
*xoxo*
kelly