Am I capable and competent enough to thrive in this world without selling out to it?

Are my feelings valid? Am I valid?

If I love you, is it enough? Do I deserve to be loved in return?

I.DON'T.KNOW.

Too many sins of omission. Too many "leave me alone"s, "leave them alone"s, "I love you"s never said. Too many "I'm sorry"s that I never meant, or that I should have said but never did. A life not LIVED. I will fail you.
I look in the mirror and I hate that man. I look out at the world, and I see the same ****, different day. Nothing changes because I am not changing it.

I have lost something along the way. I have lost my self. A door has been opened that I can never close again. A question has been asked, it needs an answer, I have nothing to give it. I am so glad I have T tomorrow.

<----- P.S.: I love the irony that my Mood is "Fine"