I was only given this dx exactly one month from yesterday. Looking back now and having somewhat of an explanation, I wonder how my behaviors were not the topic of conversation long before. I had one previous experience with a GP doc telling me i was depressed and putting me on paxil when I was having anxiety and couldn't sleep she referred me to a pdoc (about 4 yrs ago) This pdoc switched me to pristiq and Ambein. Once I started sleeping I felt better so I weaned myself from the pristiq and never gave it a second thought until recently when I couldn't figure out why I coudln't control my anger as it turned to rage and I started being verbally abusive and just mean. Then I realized how irritated I was and that my mind was always racing and that I couldn't sleep without xanax or a bong hit. So now pdoc says i have bp and gave me meds. I have noticed a shift in my behavior now but still wrapping my brain around all of this. it is new to me but looking back helps me make sense of the way I have always been...