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Main Entry: burden [bur-dn]
Part of Speech: noun Definition: mental weight; stress Synonyms: Herculean task, accountability, affliction, albatross, anxiety, ball and chain, blame, care, charge, clog, concern, deadweight, difficulty, duty, encumbrance, excess baggage, grievance, hardship, hindrance, load, millstone, misfortune, mishap, obstruction, onus, punishment, responsibility, sorrow, strain, task, tax, thorn in one's side, trial, trouble, weary load, work, worryAntonyms: aid, help, relief

I also feel like a huge clog in everybody's drain. I feel like a mishap, an obstruction, a strain, a trial, a thorn in one's (plus) side, weary load, encumbrance, deadweight, affliction, albatross and excess baggage. What I'm trying to say, is that I also feel like a burden to others. I feel like all of my issues are too much for others which makes it difficult to like myself. I feel fake, like I walk around acting like I'm okay, but if someone actually saw me break down and cry, like truly getting out the pain, they would probably put me in a mental institution. I felt like a burden on my therapist. Anyway, you're not alone.

I copied the above entry because I thought it was interesting that the antonyms to burden are aid (like you aid others), help (like you help others), and relief (like the relief you afford to all but yourself).

I know this must be difficult for you and know that I'm here if you need someone - just PM me. To me, the kind of change that many of us are going to have to undergo to become whole, is unnatural. It's like everybody else knows how to be a person, but we have to use a guidebook to figure it out. How does one undergo such an undertaking? THat is the question.

Take care!