Hi everyone,
I'm new and as I'm sitting awake in a hotel room in Bogota in the middle of the night, trying to deal with my feelings and distract myself, I'm going through the posts. Is 40 really such a big trigger? I'm 41 and haven't had depression for over 10 years. Suddenly I find myself indulging in a fantasy where I get to go back in time to school and do everything again, it has a strong sexual componant and makes me a much more important and powerful person than i am, was or ever will be. The fantasy has gone on for six weeks now and over that last two days the depression has reared it's ugly head. I know they are linked. The comparrison between me in this fantasy world and the real me is stark and so coming back to reality is a nasty schock. Am I having a mid-life crisis? Is this quite common? Oh God let there be a simple explanation. I have been so happy over the past ten years I can't believe that the depression is coming back.
What do you guys recommend for a mid-life crisis? I have already started training for a half marathon but that was mainly because it gave me free head time for my fantasy world. I need to know it's not all downhill from here.