I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder/panic attacks last Oct (also have had this twice before in my life) and commenced on an SSRI.
The SSRI initially was increased and I ended up having episoded of agitation, motor restlessness, constant talking and incessant rapid thinking. After reducing the dose this got better. So, now my anxiety is at a level I can cope with but I seem to have this profound sense of depression (like it bites me out of the blue) and I get this mixed agitation/elation/depression feeling and have trouble concentrating and thinking so fast. I almost feel such a sense of elation that it is bittersweet. I don't act out any manic behaviours (spending, sex, etc). I cant sleep as I cant stop thinking in my sleep and have vivid and lucid dreaming. I get so tired. I also have days when I can get so much done, go out with friends, study, have more energy and make plans..then maybe the next day or the week later I am cast with inertia, feelings of depression, guilt, worthlessness, low self esteem and like I just cant go out or see friends etc. My therapist who knows me so well is now considering I may have some BP happening. Has anyone else had an experience like this? I feel so faulty and so tired of the constant ruminating and thinking all the time. I wonder if the SSRI is exacerbating the mood swings and making me worse. It is so hard to describe how I feel - it is not a definite black and white mood issue as it is so confusing and mixed up with extreme feelings.
I am going to see a psychiatrist soon. My therapist feels Avanza may be more appropriate for me.