I know exactly how you feel because I am in the same place right now in my life. I also worked really hard for my relationship with this man, while he was doing nothing about it. I gave 4 good years of my youth building moments. We also had the break-up dance many times. You know what I think? A good relationship shouldn't be so much work. When I look back to my relationship all I feel is tired. I don't remember good moments anymore, sadly. He was also my first love and I cannot figure out if I am stuck on him because of that. The worst part is that I am now 29, so it hurts even worse, since I had already planted the images of a family and kids in my head. Now everything is demolished. Do you feel tired of just thinking to look for somebody new? Because I feel like this. The idea of going through the process of getting to know a new person's quirks and needs makes me dizzy. But one thing is for sure, when there are too many break-up dances it is wiser to step out of the relationship. Don't waste too much time on somehting that is already doomed. What I have been doing ever since the break-up is keeping myself busy with things. I take short trips, I go out with friends and I work a lot. I try not to have time to think because I really do torture myself by over-analysing things. And you know what else? The dude is doing great! Really! He has totally moved on in life and is already moving in with this other woman. Yep! He is the one having a ball! I'm sure that your guy is probably somewhere having fun too while you are at home crying, right? How do they manage to be like this, I really have no clue. Makes you wonder who was that person you were really with, huh?! Ok, I've said enough, huh. Just one last thing: KEEP YOURSELF BUSY. Don't think and don't analyse. MOVE ON.