Thank you for the hug BlueInanna. I really needed one.

Couldn't talk to them last night, had another problem to deal with my oldest son- going through some rough stuff.

That is cool how you worked through those emotions that time. I have also laid in bed crying but haven't had that experience- conversation with body- it makes sense to me though- how that could happen.

And yeah, this **** does haunt...doesn't want to just "be".

I realize I'm lucky my family has stood by me and they still love me. I've really reeked some havoc over the years. Oh well.