okay. I'll elaborate.

So lets say I am feeling overwhelmed and like crap... nothing new for me. My emotions are normally out of control and triggering. I have always tried to change and control my emotions, and it's never worked. So I have always been struggling.

But recently I learned that mood was my overall state of being, whether it is up, down, even or wherever it might be. I learned that emotions, what's always been out of control for me, are seperate and different than the mood that I am in.

following me so far?

So I have my mood, seperate from my emotions. I then learned that I have feelings too, that are based on my emotions. So my feelings are how I feel about my emotions. in example, I can be scared (feeling) that I am so angry (emotion) about being so depressed (mood).

still following me?

What I was reffering to in my earlier post was that I break this up in my mind and I monitor it, seperating my feelings, emotions and mood and monitoring where exactly I am at at any given time. It seems to have given me back control. I can't change the ways that I feel, but it seems that in knowing what is going on, I have control again on how I handle it and just knowing what is going on is making it possible to deal with it.

Now, I have taken it one step further, it's like the missing link to my puzzle.

I have also started monitoring my reactions to everything that I feel. the way that I react to my feelings. now THAT I do have control over. and in seperating in my mind what exactly is going on with me and why, I now have control over the way I react to it. So when I am feeling scared about feeling overwhelmed cuz I am depressed, I can now consciously go slower throughout the day and change the way I react to others around me to compensate, something that I was never able to do before.

So this is how I get through each day that was seemingly impossible before.

I hope this post was not too confusing, it's just the way that I have recently learned to cope. It could be that staying occupied enough to do this has distracted me enough to not let other things get too overwhelming.. that is possible, but the point is that it works for me and I hope you can get something out of it.